Thursday, July 17, 2008

I'm Back. Sort of.

It's been more than a month since my dad left us, and it still feels like yesterday. I want to tell you about him. About how he loved potatoes, Louis L'Amour's books, silly Chinese martial arts movies, and me. About how he would make disgusted noises every time I gave him a hug, and grin from ear to ear while pretending to push me away. About his silly quirks, like counting the number of greys in his chest hair. I wish I could go on, but the screen looks really blurred now. I can't talk about my Acha yet. I'm putting it off until some other day, when it doesn't hurt quite so much.
Thank you, all of you, for being so supportive, even though you don't know me or my family.

I have been having exams from the week he died, and it was loads of fun, I tell you. < /sarcasm> I have two more exams to go, and three practical exams, and then I'm done with fourth year. I'm all set to chuck my Park into the fire. That reminds me, I found another excellent Parkist quote the other day while reading for my exam.
"River: A direct connection between the alimentary tract of those living upstream and the mouths of those living downstream."
That's when I found out that I hadn't forgotten how to laugh, I just thought I had.

I'll see you all after the exams.

17 comments:

~nm said...

I can understand 100% of what you are going through.

And I'm not sure if the day will come when it won't hurt so much to talk about him.

Just a week ago, it was the 9th death anniversary of my Ma and till date I cry whenever I talk about her. Every single time.

Prats said...

The pain will be there but at least after a while you will see that you smile when you think of him. He will be proud of you.
hugs to you...and please do take care of yourself..
our thoughts are with you.

Cathy said...

Life's so hard sometimes...thank you for sharing some of those lovely memories of your father. They made me smile and brought a tear to my eye...

brocasarea said...

tc da......

Tys on Ice said...

welcome back girl....hugs.

Somebody Else said...

good to see you back.
ATB for the exams. :)

tangled said...

Good luck and hugs, dear.

Ziah said...

Hey! Great to see you:) Hugs! :)

Go rock em eggjams!!:) After all, a bloke like Park deserves to be burnt! :)

Suma said...

hang in there, girl and all teh best...

take care...hugs!

Pallavi said...

How did your exams go.. ?
All the best.. And keep strong.
Memories are something which will keep you by.. treasure them.. HUgs.

Sumana said...

All the best with the exams.

Sumana said...

All the best with the exams. I am glad you got a chance to laugh in between.

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Tea N. Crumpet said...

My dad loved Louis L'Amour books, too. He is still popular and I get tears in my eyes whenever I see them in stores. How you pulled through with finals and dealing with your acha's death, I do not know. I do know that YOU are capable of anything!

Sad days are no match for your will of steel. ;)

blahsfamous said...

glad you're back. would love to see the smile back in your writings too.

and yes, all the best for your eggjams.

Dragonfly said...

Hope the exams go alright. Sorry for your loss.

dailyrium said...

:) i can only say that your courage is remarkable... gives me hope